"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."

Dear Future Girlfriend

I always wonder what you’ll look like, what your name is or if you’re older or younger than me, even by just a day. I’m curious about your likes and dislikes, your favourite movies and books, music and everything else. Hopefully you’ll come along soon, so we have plenty of time to learn about each other and to fall madly in love. I promise not to ask you to change anything about yourself because you wouldn’t be the same person I first fell in love with, in fact I promise to love those flaws, because they make you who you are. I always want to make you laugh and keep smile on your face especially on the days you feel like doing nothing but crying. I’ll lay down with you and listen to your favourite songs and watch all of your favourite movies if that is what you want. I’ll tell you that you’re beautiful when you feel like you’re everything but, and I’ll make you believe it with the passion in my voice and my eyes. I’ll hold your hands and play with your fingers. I’ll sing to you even though I have a horrible voice. I may be the most unphotogenic person ever but I’m willing to break a few cameras with my face if you’re in the picture with me. We’ll sit around all day and not do anything but surf, eat junk food, watch movies and relax. I’ll always want you to do what’s best for you, even if that means it’s bad for me, even if that means breaking my own heart and letting you go. I’ll write you poems about little insignificant things we’ve done together and all the things I love about you. I’ll cook dinner, breakfast, and everything you want, I’ll slave away in the kitchen for hours just to make things perfect for you. I promise to wake up at random times during the night and send you cute text messages to wake up to, leave you messages on your computer for you to come home too after a big day, so that you smile. If you need distance, it’s yours, but I will always want you next to me. I hope you like to read because there is nothing wrong with leaving reality sometimes to travel distant lands that only exist on the pages of books. I also hope that you like the ocean, the early morning dawn surfing sessions, splashing each other and mucking around in the ocean. I want to call you into waves, laugh when you have mad wipeouts and be laughed at when I have my own. If you don’t surf, I hope you don’t mind me walking out the door at dawn with my board under my arm and a smile on my face, if you’d like to learn I would be happy to teach you. I want to smile all goofy when someone mentions your name. I want to wonder what you’re doing at this exact moment. I just want to make you feel an inch of the happiness you’ll give me. I want to celebrate those stupid little one month anniversaries even though they really aren’t anniversaries but i’ll do it because it makes you happy. I promise that i’ll love you with everything I have. I’m yours until you send me away. I promise to prove to you that not all guys are the same. I will hold you tight and never let go. I will tell you that you are beautiful until you believe it. I will stay up late talking to you. I will be your best friend AND your boyfriend. I will do everything I can to make you smile, but never cry. Love, Me

Aren’t the people who are just like you in every single way. Granted, you will share similarities, but a true best friend who is the person that has no idea what the fuck to say to you and will never understand some of the shit that’s going on, but sticks around anyways. Human beings don’t like being in situations that make them uncomfortable. If you find someone you can tell all your shit to, all the stuff you know they never wanna hear, even though they may have nothing to say but ily at the end, then that’s your mother fucking best friend. And I know who mine are.